Conflicted

On the eve of our return to our new home, Alaska, we are spending the last few hours in our old home with family and friends. It is a hard thing, living in our current circumstances. I don't blog a lot about it here, but things have been quite trying for the last 10 months for my family due to my employment situation and our desire to live a lifestyle in a place far from what we have always known.

While being around family and friends in a place that is so familiar is nice and comfortable, there are also things about it that are less than ideal. Our faith life is very important to us, well supreme really. That being said, there are practical things such as salaries and bills that have to be attended to. Life is about balance, but it is also about risk, reward, and trust. Trust is a hard, hard thing to have when things are rough and very easy when things are good.

I pray that when we return to that land of the north, we will be comforted. Not necessarily with feelins of peace, but with the ability and strength to trust. What I want for my family is to trust in God in such a way that we are willing to do our part, and leave the "details" up to God. There is a tendancy with people to do one of two extremes: either sitting back and saying: "it's all up to God" or to grab the reins and say "I need to take control of my life." Neither is very helpful because they ignore the reality that we are people of action and free will. God wants us to act and move forward, and will help us when we trust Him in such a way that we are unafraid of making a mistake.

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